Endless Ladder

If I seem much different,

more removed,

if I seem distracted,

it’s not from you.

If I’m really here now,

in a place and time,

does someone look just like me on another side?

If you receive a letter in two-thousand twelve,

it could be the last letter you could send to yourself.

On an endless ladder,

climbing higher,

climbing higher,

crawling out...

On an endless ladder,

climbing higher...

So I feel much different...

so confused...

so I feel refracted...

split in twenty-two...

so I’m really here now,

in a place and time,

(though I know I might not be on another side.)

If I receive a letter from 2017,

I would know how to read it, but not what it means.

On an endless ladder,

climbing higher,

climbing higher,

crawling up...

On an endless ladder,

climbing higher...